I just hopped in my blog today purposely to extract some old photos for Aufa`s homework assignment.
Gueess what? I missed 2011 since I got zero post entry for that year!
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Salam,
it has been finalized, and the day will come, Feb 1st.
remember, the last entry i did mention about how DH`s employer had badly facing the economic turbulence..., yes? the failures project that he was responsible, his everyday reports on colleagues got retrenched etc.well, at first when i heard about those..., i reserved my comments. of which i consulted him.."i think this is only paranoid and you`ve been worrying too much..bla bla bla" and, i take it as a matter of fact -only a politic in the company, and i believe that his service would not be terminate. but, he felt otherwise, he thought he shall leave the company on his choice rather being sacked out sooner or later. he might be heartless to work there anymore and eventually send out his resume. Days and days, one by one of his colleague got kicked out. and recently, i got to know that a friend of mine who works with a gigantic oil and gas company had been offered VSS. and she was not alone.!thats scary. then only, i realized DH situation was a true emergency.
it has been finalized, and the day will come, Feb 1st.
remember, the last entry i did mention about how DH`s employer had badly facing the economic turbulence..., yes? the failures project that he was responsible, his everyday reports on colleagues got retrenched etc.well, at first when i heard about those..., i reserved my comments. of which i consulted him.."i think this is only paranoid and you`ve been worrying too much..bla bla bla" and, i take it as a matter of fact -only a politic in the company, and i believe that his service would not be terminate. but, he felt otherwise, he thought he shall leave the company on his choice rather being sacked out sooner or later. he might be heartless to work there anymore and eventually send out his resume. Days and days, one by one of his colleague got kicked out. and recently, i got to know that a friend of mine who works with a gigantic oil and gas company had been offered VSS. and she was not alone.!thats scary. then only, i realized DH situation was a true emergency.
at the first place, by all means, i never discourage whatever decision he is going to make. i thought, with that i shall make him easier to choose. Life is about choosing , by the way, right? we done all out discussing : considering many things ie taking accounts all those commitments especially his financial obligations towards his parent (hajj, pocket money etc) and also to our kids (insurance, saving, education etc), his ambition & career development , and our mission : determination for the betterment of our life ,the kids life particularly. not long..., he got the offer from the company he applied; it was a relieve! Alhamdulillah. yet, i saw him woke up every night for istikharah, - to choose whether to gamble his position in the current company or to accept the new offer, with a package : a good deal but had to be separated. or the third choice : to accept an offer from a small company in this city. at last the decision was made heartbreakingly , he chose the 2nd option; back to Lumut which actually his ex-employer .
me? knowing me..his wife can handle this., he believes that.he gave me his full trust and confidence.though, life for me will be a bit complicated ,managing our 3 kids. So, to get myself customized to the new routine ahead: i am on my 2 weeks practice every day.every morning, i get the kids wake up, shower & dressed , breakfast, attend to fussy Aufa, (while praying mumtaz didn`t wake up and cried to be carry) and last send Abir to school .. meanwhile i do those checklists., i ask DH to minimize his help. he is a big HELP all this while. these days, he was stressed up, whenever i refuse his help. i said " if you want to help me...please don`t help anything..because i`m practising :)" again, although this is difficult for both of us.. i am positive with the days to come. insya Allah.
the day is approaching now, of which everynight before sleep i will stare on his face..a frown face.knowing that he had made a difficult decision.and only Allah KNOWS..
p/s : I`m not happy but i`m okay anyway..hey! i have a bro & sis who live just accross my window ..:)
Time sometimes can be so envy with us, ya?true in my case. I kept on postponing to update the news in here from a day to another. Until now, I realized it was already way too long since the last entry I posted. Am I too busy with my life the in the past few months?
hmmm........let me think (screwing my mind......)
Housechores?? Mrs. Laundry? Nope! DH is still being so faithful with the task including folding those piles of clothes at every single day without fail. Ironing? Not so also, since we are a devoted customer for KV Laundry for ironing service. Cooking? No either, I have catered it right to our doorstep. only cook a simple meal to top up and so dinner is possible as soon at 7pm then. So, it is difficult to come up with an exact reason for this silence. Owh..!it might be due to sudden lost of interest to blog, idiopathic cause I would say. In other way, I was having this attitude of relaxing and enjoying the off-work hours totally by attending the kids needs at home. Be it watching Tom & Jerry with them, play tumbling monkeys or even entertain their tantrum as well. Realizing there are only 4 remarkable hours with them daily..it is just unfair for them if their mom & dad spare those hours in front of the computer at home. Owh!! The other was simply because I was too occupied with our 11 months old toddler- Mumtaz! She is so lively as her two little feets are already walking since October. Walk non stop, i tell you.
Or, should I blame my notebook ? It went caput suddenly after the last entry of which all the eid photos were vanished, it got formatted and now its screen is hemianopia. Although it has recovered from a serious heart attack, the momentum was not the same. DH notebook was too little for me either. I`m updating using the kids` desktop, okay.
Or, should I blame my notebook ? It went caput suddenly after the last entry of which all the eid photos were vanished, it got formatted and now its screen is hemianopia. Although it has recovered from a serious heart attack, the momentum was not the same. DH notebook was too little for me either. I`m updating using the kids` desktop, okay.
actually whenever i feel the urge to blog, I told myself that will post an entry when it is time permissible, which it took months for me to find the perfect time.. which is today? It is Selangor public holiday, DH office is off-Selangor boundary ; he already left to work. Kids are still sleeping. So I thought it is a good day for a blogging re-start. I have imagined that I will blog on sooo many things. It could be an endless entry, I reckoned. But at this moment, somehow I just don`t know where to begin or what to start with. Let me think ..a seconds please?
1) My uncle, named Sharifuddin passed away on October 23rd, few weeks after eid fitr. Losing him with a short notice was really a huge impact to the whole family particularly my mom. I regret a bit as I didn`t help him the best I could when he cited me his symptoms when we met 2 weeks prior. I just thought it was a normal stomach quisiness and suggest him to go for the medical appointment soon. but I didn`t call to follow up whether he went or not. A week later, he got the stroke attack and only survived 5 days. still feeling guilt escalating in me. May Allah blessed him. Amiin.
2) The economic turbulence has impacted DH`s company badly..........
p/s : this part was deleted ! not approved...by DH;)
Well..enjoy browsing the below photos featuring all the sweet moments we had throughout these months.so many of them that too much caption to note. let the picture talks the story okie?
lets name these photos "collage of 3 months.."la la la..
Syukur alhamdulillah..Salam Aidilfitri!
cepat sungguh masa berlalu, eh. Sedar-sedar Syawal mengunjung lagi menggantikan Ramadhan. Aduhai Ramadhanku tahun ini, entah berapa lah nilai nya di sisi Mu Ya Rabb. Perkataan Aidilfitri lebih membawa makna kepada umat Islam yang benar-benar bersungguh menjalani Ramadhan., berbanding perkataan Hari Raya.
Sedihnya, saya tak merasa nikmat aidilfitri itu pada tahun ini.., sebabnya jelas saya kurang kesungguhan.., tak terkejar masa di antara kerja-kerja rumah dan ibadah khusus. Qiam tak kerap, tilawah tak sampai separuh Quran! berbeza dengan tahun-tahun lepas, kerja-kerja rumah disettlekan oleh maid. makanya, tahun ini saya rasa aidilfitri saya biasa-biasa sahaja.lebih-lebih lagi bila menyambut raya bukan di rumah ibubapa sendiri ye gitu?
Giliran raya tahun ini adalah di rumah keluarga suami. Seperti tahun-tahun sebelumnya, cara sambutannya tidak seperti di Perak .Mestilah kan, mana nak sama. Inilah dikatakan perkahwinan, kita belajar pandai menyesuaikan diri dengan gaya hidup keluarga pasangan. Di awal perkahwinan dulu, agak janggal..tetapi sekarang alah bisa, tegal biasa.
Suasananya berbeza sedikit.sekali lagi, saya rasa sedih juga kerana tidak dapat ke masjid untuk solat aidilfitri seperti tahun-tahun lepas.maid takde lagi..alasannya. Apapun, kami anak beranak tetap bergaya dengan warna oren sedondon. selepas kaum bapa pulang dari solat, kami bersalaman dan berfotografi. Saya masak rendang tok negeri perak tahun ini. habis semuanya 2 setengah kilo daging dimakan bersama ketupat palas. sempat juga buat lemon cupcakes juga. Ikutkan hati macam nak buat, tapi tak jadi lepas teringat kata-kata Kak Pah tempoh hari.
InsyaAllah,..Ramadhan tahun hadapan saya berazam untuk menebus kekalahan saya pada tahun ini.Jika masih dipanjangkan umur dan diberikan kesihatan.Amiin.
Raya sebulan ke? Rumah kami sentiasa terbuka untuk kunjungan para sahabat. beri saja sms awal, boleh saya masak apa-apa special ok. Salam Aidilfitri & Maaf Zahir Batin
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